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This feels like hell.....

With Russia hacking U.S. government and LJ being transferred to Russian servers, I'll take this time to welcome my new overlords to my page. I hope you you'll enjoy my past ramblings from a 20 something college student over the politics of Harry Potter and getting into fights with middle aged white women (and maybe one fuckboy) over Snape.

Speaking of politics, I haven't been the same since November. What's giving me some relief is that the rest of the world seems as disgusted as I am, week after week of protests against the shitshow that won't stop, and that the rest of the world is seeing it. I'm hoping that gives us some credibility since we lost all of it at the election.

And J.K. Rowling pissing off Trump fans on Twitter. That's giving me life too.

And a HELLO to anyone still reading this. I'm so sorry for what we've done.

Harry Potter and the Cursed Child

The impossible happened. We have the closest thing to an 8th Harry Potter book. Midnight release and all. It was a miracle. I'm currently breaking my record of the fastest time it takes me to read an HP book only because plays are shorter and easier reads. Full length plays take me about an hour and half, and this contains 2.

That said, this is most bizzarre play I've ever read. O_o

And a big hello/ long time no talk to anyone still here. Prepare for this fandom to to implode once again if it hasn't already. 

Oh Snape....

Almost 9 years since Book 7 came out, and the Snape debates still keeps going strong. At least JKR has Twitter so folks can now take it out on her directly. -_-


Also, hello to anyone who is still here.

Out-of-context observation....

All the essay writing and fighting in the forums I did over Snape and Lily back in my mid 20's, I realize the people I fought with and pissed off the most were middle aged white women, most of them American. Then I realized that's has been the story of my life. O_o.....

First Harry Potter, now Naruto

The day you find out the series you've read for 10 years of your life ends with everyone getting baby.......

More Throwbacks: The Real Ghostbusters

Long story short, for the first time in 25 years, I've rewatched all the episodes of The Real Ghostbusters. Also for the first time, in chronological order now that everything is on Youtube. I remembered all over again how much this show meant to me. If Harry Potter and my other favorite stories were past relationships, this show was my first love (well, it was more like Peter Venkman, but whatever). All the strong mixed feelings I have can be found on my TV/Movie Blog here along with a bunch of random posts I have while watching the series.

With that said, I'm so glad Ghostbuster's never made it big enough for fandom to jump on Livejournal back in the 00's. I would not be able to handle the wank. I only say that because when it comes to Peter Venkman, I can give Snapewives a run for their money. It would not be pretty.

Sailor Moon Crystal

Aside from real life continuously pulling me in every corner, Sailor Moon has made a come back and so has my childhood. My free time is now spent squealing with excitement watching Hulu.

I seriously can not stop smiling........

According to this, JKR changed her mind about Ron and Hermione.

I probably need to re-read the books again (which would then be my 4th time I think?), but aside from some details here and there, I was satisfied with everyone's development. With the fandom not as active anymore, I don't know what public wank can  development from this. And even so, I'm still not sure how much I'd care. We all grow and change. JKR wouldn't be the first artist to look back on their body of work and think they could have done better.
"Patriarchy has no gender." ~Bell Hooks

I don't know who else is still around the fandomsphere that may read this. The few people I was close to here I've connected with on Facebook, and real life has a taken a toll on all of us in different ways. But writing out Part 3 was always my unfinished business, and at least now I have a slightly more mature head that can finally finish this up.

Today I was re-reading Part 1, Part 2, and the comments. A few things I've realized:

-I think my writing was semi-shitty. I'm probably being too hard myself, but there's a few spots that I want to edit when I have the time.

-My arguments in the comments were even more shitty, and that's just truth. Some of them make me cringe just looking at them

-I, along with many others, delved too much into comparing Muggle discrimination in the HPverse to real life racism, to the point where it was kind of offensive in itself. And most of it was done by non-POC's fighting with non-POC's. The books do a good enough job of setting up muggle discrimination and blood status within its own world. If people are going to deny the conflicts of the story, there's nothing else that can be done. And in many ways, real life racism doesn't even compare to what's in the books.

But what got me so angry and motivated back then and to rant and argue with a whole bunch of strangers was that I was hurt. I was hurt by seeing Lily referred to as a gold digger, as a bitch, as an unforgiving naive girl who stayed unforgiving and naive till the day she died. I was hurt seeing a girl labeled as cruel and hard to deal with for trying to defend herself. I was hurt by seeing all these insults coming from fellow women. And most of all, while all of this was going on, a fictional man who who was just as cruel and emotionally selfish as Lily was claimed to be, who was cruel to the son of the woman he was supposed to love and used his authority as a teacher to do so, was praised to no end by the same people. That he deserved forgiveness for things he was never sorry about until the very last minute when the woman he loved was at risk. Women fawned over him, and some even claimed to be in love with him. (HE'S NOT EVEN REAL!!)

It hurt going into almost every Snape forum, which most people do for their favorite characters, and not feeling safe.

And it still hurts today, because I'm still seeing it. I'm seeing it in discussions of other female characters in other fandoms when it involves the love and/or actions of men. And with what's been going on the last 4 years, I'm seeing it even more in real life. Women's choices are still being debated for whether or not they should be legal by a bunch of mostly white men. Teenage girls who have been raped are being demonized, to the point of being driven to suicide, while their rapists are still roaming free. And in some cases the rapists are being protected by their school and community. And even after they're caught, the journalists who are reporting on their trials are feeling sorry for them for the punishments they have to face. I see it when my girlfriends, who are in their 30's/married/living on their own still complain about their brothers or even their husbands getting special treatment and expectations from their own families. I see it when I now have friends and family who have been victims of abuse and sexual assault, and their male perpetrators still think they've done nothing wrong. I still see women demonizing other women with the same patriarchal attitudes we think can only be executed by men. Women are still in danger, both physically and emotionally.

The list can go on. We are still continuously attacking our women.

I admit, I had a bad habit of arguing with people back then. I still do. But with the few regrets I have for all my past antics, I'm glad I wrote what I did. Because It still needs to be said, because the examples I gave in Part 1 and Part 2 are still happening 4 years later.

To anyone who is reading this, who is still seeing the same things I see in both fandom and real life, who are still fighting (and I see you guys still fighting), I wish you all the strength to keep going. And that anything I've said here or in my past posts inspires you to do so.

I find it a coincidence that I decide to post this last night, and I find out just minutes ago that COS is closing today for good. This is an end of an era.
"The salty Dornishmen were lithe and dark, with smooth olive skin and long black hair streaming in the wind. The sandy Dornishmen were even darker, their faces burned brown by the hot Dornish sun. They wound long bright scarfs around their helms to ward off sunstroke. The stony Dornishmen were biggest and fairest, sons of the Andals and the First Men, brown-haired or blond, with faces that freckled or burned in the sun instead of browning." ~ A Storm of Swords, p. 520

Given GRRM's response to the casting, I'm getting the feeling that his version of "dark, olive skin" is someone who looks like me.

(I'm a light skinned yellowish Southeast Asian in case you're wondering.)